the ballad of love and hate

i just don’t believe that i need to check with god to see if it’s ok, call if i’m gonna stay out past nine, or ask permission before a friend spends the night

i only believe in a will when it’s the opposite of will not or a large sum of money being left behind

i’ve been given the desires of my heart

i’ve been given grace

i’ve been given a choice

at least that’s what some people say

but what’s the point in worrying so much

if he’s really in control, anyway

can we please talk about how...

i was brave enough to tell my girlfriend that i love her

and that she said she loved me too

and that she’s met my parents.

my sister.

brother in law.

and nephew.

my best guy friend.

and hasn’t run away.

that i invited her to thanksgiving and she wants to go

that sometimes she doesn’t understand what i mean when i talk about all my feelings and the way my feelings make me feel and how i feel like she has a lot of feelings too and how that makes me feel……..

but she kisses me and helps me laugh at my crazy head.

and tells me not to worry.

if this isn’t it, i don’t know what is.

i know it might not be forever.

i know that.

i do.

but for now. i am happy.

for now this is real.

for now i am sitting across from my girlfriend as she works, as i have every time i’ve been home since we started seeing each other.

and i melt a little each time she catches my eye and kisses the air when no one else is looking.

melt.

love it

I am constantly hearing the phrases “But you’re so trendy!” “But she’s so pretty!” “I can’t believe how girly you are!” after informing the otherwise clueless friend of a friend of my inclination towards the ladies…These phrases of oblivion are sometimes cute and sometimes obnoxious but responding to them makes me feel like I’m saving the world, one straight girl at a time.

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